Was supposed to be a CC day today, but I spent about 8 hours weeding in the garden, and I don't think that my body would make the best use of the CC time right now.
First thing in the morning tomorrow = CC with the girls and then tilling the garden to finish it off.
Then, KB's in the evening. whoot whoot
Eats today:
7:00 - 2 coffees
10:00 - 1 rye bread, toasted, 1/2 T. goat cheese, 1/2 beet
11:00 - working on paper, panic attack, 1 c. carrots w/ 1 T. ranch; 4 T. peanut butter
12:00 - spinach soup
3:00 - snack of ?? nothing, I think.
4:30 - spinach soup, green beans, carrots
7:30 - slush of blueberries, cherries, and 3 pineapple slices
Okay day - needed to go for a walk and just put the work away when I felt the panic attack coming. OR just not work at home, which is where I have the problems. If i were to go to a coffee shop to work, I wouldn't have a problem....easy solution, I think.
Monday, June 25, 2012
Sunday, June 24, 2012
sunday
Few thoughts after today:
Today was a workday for DH and a church day for the girls and myself. SO --
FIRST - I need to prepare for unexpectedly be out of the house. Because my extended family's habits will not support my healthy habits. Case in point - animal crackers for lunch today. And afternoon snack.
SECOND: if it is in the house, i will eat it. And if it is something carby and sweet, I will not stop eating until it is gone. SO - just don't have it in the house.
Lesson - I need to actively and purposefully set myself up for success.
Evening workout =
running day # 2:
1 min run, 2 min jog (x6) w/ 10 minutes of warm up and cool down.
Stretching of hip flexors, hammies, etc....AFTER the jog.
Today was a workday for DH and a church day for the girls and myself. SO --
FIRST - I need to prepare for unexpectedly be out of the house. Because my extended family's habits will not support my healthy habits. Case in point - animal crackers for lunch today. And afternoon snack.
SECOND: if it is in the house, i will eat it. And if it is something carby and sweet, I will not stop eating until it is gone. SO - just don't have it in the house.
Lesson - I need to actively and purposefully set myself up for success.
Evening workout =
running day # 2:
1 min run, 2 min jog (x6) w/ 10 minutes of warm up and cool down.
Stretching of hip flexors, hammies, etc....AFTER the jog.
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Saturday, jun 23
Not sure why I have so many negative thoughts today, but I'm just having a serious pity party. Need to get out of this funk, I think.
anyway - girls are finally in bed and DH is outside working on projects, so I'm about to head downstairs for 100 KB swings and then walking on the TM. 2 miles goal.
Eats today:
7:00 - 2 c. coffee, 2 pancakes, 3 sausages
11:30 - large cxn spinach salad
3:00 - 3 pb crackers, 1/2 c. blueberry, cherry, pineapple sorbet
5:30 - spinach soup
7:00 - 1/2 slice zucchini bread
2 more cups coffee w/ 1/2 c. milk in there somewhere
Much better today in terms of the carbs, but still very high. Need to keep those to the last few hours fo the day. Also had planned on fasting the first 8 hrs of the day, but really need to get mentally focused right away so that I don't let the family influence me.
Am going to place my overarching goal on a stick in the center of my laptop....thinking that this daily reminder might help.
anyway - girls are finally in bed and DH is outside working on projects, so I'm about to head downstairs for 100 KB swings and then walking on the TM. 2 miles goal.
Eats today:
7:00 - 2 c. coffee, 2 pancakes, 3 sausages
11:30 - large cxn spinach salad
3:00 - 3 pb crackers, 1/2 c. blueberry, cherry, pineapple sorbet
5:30 - spinach soup
7:00 - 1/2 slice zucchini bread
2 more cups coffee w/ 1/2 c. milk in there somewhere
Much better today in terms of the carbs, but still very high. Need to keep those to the last few hours fo the day. Also had planned on fasting the first 8 hrs of the day, but really need to get mentally focused right away so that I don't let the family influence me.
Am going to place my overarching goal on a stick in the center of my laptop....thinking that this daily reminder might help.
Friday, June 22, 2012
Friday, June 22 -
Being honest here:
Convict conditioning:
*pull ups (horizontal with wall, 3x40 - exit step 1)
*working on squat flexibility at bottom with box/stair squats (3x10)
Running day 1 (see chart)
Eats:
2 c. water + 1 T. chia + 1/2 lime
3 eggs, 1 zucchini, 1 T. sour cream, 6 stalks asparagus
1 banana
nearly 1/2 loaf zucchini bread (crash)
5 animal crackers
1/2 c. slush made w/ blueberries, strawberries, trace pineapple juice
6:16 pm - feeling somewhat sick due to quantity of zucchini bread. Still have my run and my squat flexbility work to do. BUT, girls are going to be early (7:00) b/c they were so off the wall today. And JT is home tomorrow, so life will be at least a little easier.
Convict conditioning:
*pull ups (horizontal with wall, 3x40 - exit step 1)
*working on squat flexibility at bottom with box/stair squats (3x10)
Running day 1 (see chart)
Eats:
2 c. water + 1 T. chia + 1/2 lime
3 eggs, 1 zucchini, 1 T. sour cream, 6 stalks asparagus
1 banana
nearly 1/2 loaf zucchini bread (crash)
5 animal crackers
1/2 c. slush made w/ blueberries, strawberries, trace pineapple juice
6:16 pm - feeling somewhat sick due to quantity of zucchini bread. Still have my run and my squat flexbility work to do. BUT, girls are going to be early (7:00) b/c they were so off the wall today. And JT is home tomorrow, so life will be at least a little easier.
Friday, June 22: trigger
Today I struggled, but I identified a major trigger. I do research for a local university and am a graduate student, defending my dissertation in a few weeks. I do most of my work and studying from home, because I also stay home and raise our two daughters.....and summertime means that both are home full time. I love them, but I also resent this position that I've chosen. We keep them home until they are in school because we think that it's best for them, but it is not the fun, easy, play all the time sort of lifestyle that many think that it is. I think that my resentment toward this choice is a mid-life reaction....as I see many of my friends traveling the world and taking on exciting challenges....and it is also a reaction to pulling myself through this past year of finishing off a dissertation and completely letting myself go...I am honestly in the worst shape and condition of my life. I am embarrassed to go out, for my husband to be seen with me, none of my clothes fit me, and then I eat more because - honestly -
I am pretty darn depressed. Feeling sorry for my sorry self. Down in the dumps. Just sick of life.
But hey - I put myself here, and I will dig myself out.
And part of this requires that I am honest about my triggers.
So today, I was breaking up yet another fight between our girls. The fight was something silly - like daughter A was too close to daughter B, and their elbows were touching, and they were both sure that they "owned" the space. And once that was resolved, another fight ensued. It has been like this all day. Nothing surprising, as we stayed home, and when we don't stay busy, things go awry. I am fully aware, and I set myself up for failure in this situation. I did not play things wisely, did I?
So after fight # 3, I was nearing my breaking point, and how did I deal? I dove for the loaf of zucchini bread.
And i ate.
And I ate.
And I felt sick.
And I ate some more.
Awesome, right? Well, no, but seriously, it is awesome that I identified this trigger. and now, to deal with it, I think that I need to:
1) Establish a plan for my next "break", because it's bound to happen sooner rather than later.
*like drink an entire water bottle of H20 before I can dive into the comfort food
*like separate the girls, give them books for 10 minutes, set the timer, and use it to meditate.
2) Get rid of my comfort foods. If they're not around, I can't eat them. Nuff said.
I am pretty darn depressed. Feeling sorry for my sorry self. Down in the dumps. Just sick of life.
But hey - I put myself here, and I will dig myself out.
And part of this requires that I am honest about my triggers.
So today, I was breaking up yet another fight between our girls. The fight was something silly - like daughter A was too close to daughter B, and their elbows were touching, and they were both sure that they "owned" the space. And once that was resolved, another fight ensued. It has been like this all day. Nothing surprising, as we stayed home, and when we don't stay busy, things go awry. I am fully aware, and I set myself up for failure in this situation. I did not play things wisely, did I?
So after fight # 3, I was nearing my breaking point, and how did I deal? I dove for the loaf of zucchini bread.
And i ate.
And I ate.
And I felt sick.
And I ate some more.
Awesome, right? Well, no, but seriously, it is awesome that I identified this trigger. and now, to deal with it, I think that I need to:
1) Establish a plan for my next "break", because it's bound to happen sooner rather than later.
*like drink an entire water bottle of H20 before I can dive into the comfort food
*like separate the girls, give them books for 10 minutes, set the timer, and use it to meditate.
2) Get rid of my comfort foods. If they're not around, I can't eat them. Nuff said.
Nutrition
In general, I like the following routine:
6:30: Wake up & have hot green tea & work out
8:00 - 2 c. water w/ 1 T. chia seeds & 1/4 lime juiced.
11:00 - lunch typically large salad w/ 4 oz. protein OR 3 eggs + veggies
2:00 - green drink of 3 oz. greens + fruit + 1/2 scoop whey protein
5:00 - dinner of lean protein, veggies, whole food carb (sweet potato, squash)
kitchen is closed for the night.
6:30: Wake up & have hot green tea & work out
8:00 - 2 c. water w/ 1 T. chia seeds & 1/4 lime juiced.
11:00 - lunch typically large salad w/ 4 oz. protein OR 3 eggs + veggies
2:00 - green drink of 3 oz. greens + fruit + 1/2 scoop whey protein
5:00 - dinner of lean protein, veggies, whole food carb (sweet potato, squash)
kitchen is closed for the night.
CC routine tracking
Convict Conditioning routine tracking
Monday: Pushups & Leg Raises (2-3 work sets)
Thursday: Pullups & Squats (2-3 work sets)
Monday: Pushups & Leg Raises (2-3 work sets)
Thursday: Pullups & Squats (2-3 work sets)
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